God, i'm really thankful for last year and now this year! A completely brand brand new start to everything, it's really been so wonderful being in the cell, if i really didn't have the beautiful and amazing girls that i'm great friends with right now, i don't know what I'll be right now. (probably still living in some unchristian world)

Without Stanley's Cells blog who always make me laugh, without my cell girls who were always so positive and supportive, and accepting of all things big & small, without their great hearty laughter and sweet serene smiles, and calm attitudes, the year wouldn't have been the same at all.

I can't wait to see what this year has in stored. xD

1 I want to adopt a positive attitude to everything. To bring out a smile even in the darkest situation, no more negative film and negative attitudes!

2 I want to change to be for the better. No more taking myself for granted, No more giving myself excuses to the things that I can let go of, or overcome. To be able to do the things that I could do last time, this year won't be a failure but a success.

3 I want to grow stronger in God. To have more Faith, i'm not going to be a coward.

4 To give and love with the heart of Christ in Me.

realised that during the 3 days my face was severely dehydrated, and it was so fickle and dry that my skin was peeling at the sides, plus with breakouts and huge eyebags, all thanks to sleeping on the floor so spent 10min trying to calm down my pepperoni face :(

No matter who i talk to, how much fun i had last year (2008), how AMAZING the retreat was, or how much laughter joy, grace and wonderful blessings from God, i still feel as if there's something missing. i'm waiting for something, and i need God to fill that need.

How do you cure loneliness?
(not loneliness in faith, but loneliness in life)

p/s: my parents are clearing up the house doing a whole lotta spring cleaning, and i feel as if God told me "you have to clean up too, get rid, and throw it away, you know what it is. take that step, it's a brand new year, and i want you to serve me fully and wholly, with no disappointment or attachments" or something like that, but how man, how?